kaly_loves_muse

Just an Update

2009-07-23T18:40:52Z

Dont talk to any of you anymore really,
but I thought you should know a few things

Keven Headstream passed away last saturday, he was only 20
Preston Butler passed almost 3 weeks ago?

kaly_loves_muse @ 2009-06-15T01:29:00

2009-06-15T08:36:51Z

Being sick had some good to it.
Free food.
Catching up on TV.
Free movies.
Relaxing
Popsickles!

My bed is int he middle of my room
My walls are all bare
Josie and the Pussycats is my favorite childhood movie
I wish I were a rock star

YEaaa :]

Gotta get up early

RAHH

2009-06-10T08:29:24Z

I could go for some strawberries
and a boy :] hahah

I'm so wiped!

DO NOT SLEEP TOO MUCH! It makes you more tired.

yyyyeeeeaaaa

Tell me something that made you smile today
GO

BoysBoysBoys

2009-06-05T08:36:24Z

So, I accepted a date tonight...
In all honesty, I felt bad to let him down.
He took me to Tempe Improve.
I had a great time, just not spark...
He asked me if I had a boyfriend, I said no.
Things just didnt click with us so idk what to do ha.
Anywho, I loved the dressing up, going to a show, in the city. AH, what a life high.

Look how amazing

To see
Jim Breuer from SNL and Half Baked

Tomorrow
Gonna go visit Zach
and First Friday with Max and Karina

I like :]

2009-06-01T03:29:21Z

Yesterday, Last night, and this morning... amazing.
I really like someone
I have THEE best of friends
And a really great life.

AH
I need a job.
Apartment
School
Love

I think I'm staying put.

Farewell Missouri

kaly_loves_muse @ 2009-05-29T12:31:00

2009-05-29T19:40:44Z

now to figure out if there is "something" more.

last night I went to the movies with a very special boy :]
FINALLY saw Star Trek, so good.
SIMON effing PEGG WAS IN IT! Which made it 10x better!
But I didnt get a kiss goodnight :[ or at all that night.
He even moved the little arm thing between us out of the way..
Wtf is going onnnnn

uhhh, and I think someone is currently asking me out on a date for tonight...someone different...
what the hell.

I get asked out here more than at school
but boys make it mre obvious at school than they do here...

What a wonderful way to sttarttt the summmerrr

2009-05-24T12:57:10Z

Lunch with JJ

Then party hoppin!
Ended up at Austin's
some asian was hitting on me all night
then at the end, the other asian asked for my number... I said I didnt have a phone, then the first asian backed me up on it hahahah
what a good night
old faces and new.
ah, i love it

lunch with karina todayyyy

i love my life

im glad to be home
:D

I hate accidently hittng the back button and losing all the typing you did.

2009-05-22T09:16:11Z

I was told by several people that I have been missed, and I actually see the truth in everysingle one.
Even got a few tears.
I fucking love my friends.
I love being able to stay out so late.
I love the summer.

Today was good.
Lunch with Kara.
had amazing sushi

Traffic school form 5;40-10:05
wasnt all that bad, kinda fun. Had a few laughs and got free candy.

Then a quick bite to eat with Zach :]
I love spending time with him.

Then off to hang out with a friend.

I'm happy.
:]

I must say

2009-05-21T08:11:39Z

It's great to be home.
With what family is actually there, Im greatful.
Spending time with my mother and youngest brother has been great.
Seeing old friends.
The smell of weed.
The talk of old times.
The adventures we used to live in.
And the new ones to come.
A year ago I didnt like Max, but look at us now Becoming good friends.

I'm so excited for this summer.
Everything has been so positive and great.
Altho, there are some talks about Thomas, but I'm prepared.
I've missed you all.
I've missed the sun
I've missed late nights
I've missed my friends
I've missed the life.

I'm back :]

Why am I not that sad?

2009-05-15T05:30:32Z

Last night of the school year.
Bowling with people I never saw myself hanging out with, it was actually a lot of fun.
And hookah with people I have never hung out with.
again, a lot of fun

I'm leaving Missouri! Who knows if I'll be back.
What ever happens happens.
I say that I'll be back in the spring, just to give some people a little hope.
Saying god-bye sucks.

Codie and I are/were on weird terms and I guess that is how it will be.
He gave me two of the best hugs today, and I will miss him dearly.
As much as he pisses me off, he can make me smile more than often.
I love love love love that boy with all my heart! He was part of my GetAway here. :]
Aww Hunnny Bunnny I will miss you!

Derek and I said good bye like we'd see each other again.
We went through a lot.
I have felt a lot for you, and I can actually let go.
The things I hear make me upset, but being with him makes it all go away.
I love his kind heart, how he is so considerate, how loving, fun, himself he is.
There will always be a place in my heart for you. :]

Jessica is one of those friends you can be loud with. Do crazy shit, like going to springfield for no reason really.
Hookah bar late at night, along with Sonic and T-Bell runs.
gonig to walmart to red box a movie and actually watch it.
Beat each other up in the halls.
Scare the shit out of each other just for laughs. Diving like a mad women.
And, yes, I know I thought bad things about you... and I am sorry.
I should know you would never do such a thing... and if you knew you were hurting me, you would make sure I knew your intentions were anything but.
Girl, I will miss ya.

And Emmy :]
My best.
From the first day of school, it was always Emily and Kaly.
That's how we were known, and we didnt hang out THAT much.
Total opposide of me, but so much fun!
I have NEVER laugh so hard EVERYTIME we were together.
Everytime I see In and Out, Pier one, Chipotle, Forever, when I go to Cali, see a blonde with the biggest smile and heart, I will think of you.
You put up with my BS, and you didnt judge one bit.
You laughed at my stupid jokes.Well, you laughed at me in general.
I can be my complete self with you.. and I'm gonna miss that.
I loved loved LOVED being there when you came out of your sell, cracking "that's what she said" jokes, dancing, making faces. hahaha things you would not do in front of other people.. ahah makes me smile.
And you being there when I broke down, god, I'm so glad you were there.
I honestly cannot think of a friend who dropped everything to come make sure I was ok.
You actually listened to the reasons I had for certain things and UNDERSTOOD them. And understood that I needed time, strength to change, and you believed in me.
You were the one girl I could stand here in this Bubble.
I could be who I am with you, and you were there to see who I have become.
And you were there, supporting me 101%...
I can go on and on girl.
God has truely blessed me with your friendship.
I love you :]

As much as leaving one place SUCKS
Being able to experience a new place and people was AMAZING.
I know I complained and complained
Overall, this was a fantastic experience.
I'm so excited for what is to come.

I have made my mark.

loveLOVE

kaly_loves_muse @ 2009-05-13T18:35:00

2009-05-14T00:37:40Z

dont you just love fucknig up finals?
but then going out for breakfast makes it all better.

ok bye :]

ps,
there is talk about another effing tornado

:D / D:

2009-05-12T21:44:35Z

No more living in the I Am Legend phase!
Power is back!
How ever, it is ciurrently storming and I'm scared it will go out again.
Then again, that would mean Finals would be canelled!
Sunday I'm driving down to Tulsa and I get to stay in a niccce hotel!
Then Monday I start my drive!
I am hungry, and I wanna watch a movie. Sooo peace out my babes!

:]

lovelove

kaly_loves_muse @ 2009-05-10T15:06:00

2009-05-10T20:09:10Z

Codie has electricity, didnt invite Em, Jess or Me over... but uh lacy is there?! that doesnt make sense but what ever, fucker.
Tehra has electricity, but she is sick, so I dont wanna go over there.
Karyn and Becca have electricity! SO I AM HERE!
Waiting to take a nice hot shower. mmmm
and actually get to do my hair! NO WAY?!
:]
Good mood.

Wish your mother a happy mommy day

lovelove

Yea, I think I win at shitty weekend, maybe not

2009-05-10T04:32:00Z

7:04 am, Friday.-Tornado storm hits.
Sky is green, trees hitting windows, shit flying everywhere, trees up rooted, people running outside, power out.
Friday classes are cancelled.
Nothing to do with the whole city out of electricity, no money, and little gas.
Night falls.
The dorms are pitch dark, scary, like someone will pop out.
I'm just waiting for the zombies to attack...
Saturdday, still no damn power. I set out on my search for internet and power to charge my phone.
FINALY FOUND SOME!
Em and I are on drive by to hotels for the net.
We are awesome.
Anyway, we're gnna be living in the dark, no warm water and no food until monday. yay....

yea, this is one intersting weekend....

I was gonna say something funny, but I forgot.

2009-05-06T01:59:14Z

I wore my awesome outfit today!
I was told I looked cute a lot today :]
I havent talk to Codie all weekend, he was ingoring my calls, not txting me back.
Then last night before classes started again, he txt me.. wtf.. it's like he only talks to me when he knows he;ll be forced to see me.
I got oer it and just had fun in classes today. He hugged me for the first time ever... I think he just wanted to touch my tits.. haha jk.. but it was weird.
I fell asleep in Chapel, HA.
Wrote letters in all my classes because IDGAF anymore.
Went to lunch, Derek acting weird again.
Had an hour to kill before work, so I fell asleep and almost over slept.
Work was ok.
Then I made dinner. Shitty food. GOD I miss home cooked meals... I HATE living off caf. food and fast food.
The little dinners I bought at the store SUCKED. I cant even eat those... maybe I'm sick.
Went to work AGAIN.
The new camera I've been using is stupid. The flash is DEAD and UGH.
RAINING ALL DAMN DAY!
But the green looks amazing everywhere!
The end?

I'm so hungry, but I dont want to eat anything.. ughhh.

die.

:]
Still in an ok mood

Imma real life actress!

2009-05-05T04:17:47Z

Let's see...
Woke up
Lunch with EMMMYYYYY
Work [was ggreeaaattt BTW!]
Picked up din din
Watch GG
Showered
Talked to Jessica about Derek... Obviously, someone has been filling her head that I thought [or others thought] Derek and Jess were dating.
I thought no such thing, I thought they were getting too close. And she knows where I stand on Derek, period.
Yet, she wanted to talk to me, and make sure I knew there was nothin between them.. hahaha
Straighten my hair
Burt my hand.
Ate cheetos and watch GG.

GREAT DAY!
Tomorrow will be better
Back to classes
Back to people
Back to being productive

only this week and nxt.
We can make it through this...
We can make it through this...
We can...

Damn, Im thirsty!

:]

Why is it

2009-05-04T01:58:36Z

Why is it that I'm so depressed here...
At a fucking Christian College?

I need a drink.

I'm going for a fucking drive to fucking walmart because that's all that's here in this shithole of a town...

fucking village.
ha.

cant believe this is the 4th biggest city in Missouri, sad.

Dirty, chicken, strangers, flowers, nasty starbucks, gaga, spook light

2009-05-03T05:34:21Z

So my whole plan was to get up this morning, return the camera, eat, shower, then work.
But I coudnt return the camera when I needed to. I couldnt take a shower when I wanted to.
So I went to work feeling so gross!
ohh but I did eat my late lunch before all that.
After work I decided I wanted an Expresso Truffle.
When ordering, Derek asked me to hang out.
but I smelt.
I needed to hurry back, shower, and get read in time.
My truffle was so nasty, I hate starbucks to go.
But I got to shower!
We went to Walmart to get Lady GaGa.
AND OF COURSE!
Britney, Derek's ex, was in the walmwart.
We both say "oh shit"
He said it because he didnt wanna see her, the girl he was in love with, but he broke up with her.
I said it because, well I dont want her near him. And, honesty, I didnt wanna hear Britney talk all night.
I think I'm over this guy. It's making me sick, and I catch myself rolling my eyes at the sound of her name from his mouth... Sorry D.

Well after, we decided to find the Spook Light.
What is the Spook Light?
Well, we're told it is some lgiht of a spirit in the middle of no where...
We got lost of course.
But yea, at least I got out of my room.

Nick thinks I have depression.

tomorrow I'm going shopping, alone.
I wanna try on all these clothes and buy a new outfit.
Annnnd I just remembered I have a project due tuesday, fuck.

Well, only one more week of "learning"
Then finals week.
Then the 2 day drive home.
excellent.
It's almost here. I CAN RELAX AND GET OUT OF MY MIND!
:D
I miss the city.

:]

I would just like to say

2009-05-02T07:07:09Z

that it is rather funny, yet annoying when girls message you on facebook to tell you to stop txting thier boyfriend at 1am [when they have sex, she says] when I havent txt him at that time in, at least, a year.
Gooooodness, this girl needs to relax.
GOD!
hhahaha

On a lighter side.
My boss found a new job!
She was being let go here at school and needed a new job, fast.
And she got the perfect one :]
Congrats

And Karyn!
She was quiting after this semester and was looking for a new job.
She, too, found the perfect one.
Who am I gonna prank Jason with now :[

It seemed that both these jobs came at the right time for both. :]
I hope I find a job in AZ.

2am
wtf am i still doing up!?

oh, btw.
Saw a creey, intense movie...
I'm knda scared ha

kaly_loves_muse @ 2009-04-30T15:23:00

2009-04-30T21:29:50Z

You took everything I've ever wanted from me.
So I did the same back to you.
And it still feels like I lost.
I wish I could see your face right now.
I wish I could see how you react.
But, I'm deleting your name from my life.
Good bye nobody.
:]

I need a job where In can travel.
Something with the airlines?
Run away killer?
hahah
Nah. I'm kidding, cant kill a soul.
I'll think of something.

I think I'm sick.
Eating half my weight.
Yet,, everytime I take a bite, I feel sick to my stomach.
Tired always.
Lonely.
My eye is being stupid, but it's no pink eye.
Hey! At least I got a C+ on my term paper!
In the real world it's a B!
and also almosy 200 dollars for my last pay check:]
So I guess things are ok.
17 daysssssssssssssssssss!

Weird things

2009-04-28T18:42:47Z

Maybe signs!
But idk, they wouldnt really sound like good signs to you normal people haha

People, movies, books, everything is telling me to live the life I want.
To make it how I want it.
To do what I want.

So I think I might.
I really want to live each day, not looking back.
I want things to be exciting.
I want to have something to look forward always.
I need a job that is always changing.
I need a life that is always changing.
I dont want my days to be the same.

So, I'm moving home.
I'll keep the MO option open of course.
Still Pre-Enroll, reserve my room and predend like I'm coming back here.
This summer is going to make a difference.
Summer classes, summer job.
Who knows?
Maybe I'll stay in AZ for a year, then move to another state for another.
I dont even know about school anymore...
I dont wanna be a failure by dropping out... but I dont know what I want to do for a living.
It will come to me.

WELL!
I feel sick to my stomach,
Work in 20 mins
People I dont know contacting me telling me not to text thier boyfriend when they are having sex? HAHAHAHA
20 more days of MO...

It's today.

2009-04-25T18:37:33Z

I want to be home.

I want it.

2009-04-24T04:28:22Z

But do I need it?
Yes and No.

Someone hit the restart button.
I'm ready to renew.
Completely.

I cant just decide to live a different way and call that my new life.
I want an ACTUAL new life.
A new fucking start.
I wish reincarnation was real.
That would be rad.
I wish this coke was spiked.
That would be swell.
I wish you kept your word.
That would be the amazing.

I
am
going
out
of
my
mind.

I actually asked for a cigarette today.
Uh, What the hell.

Dear God, save me.

Welcome back?

2009-04-22T18:22:20Z

Sex
Drugs
Rock and Roll

haha well im not too sure.

but
hello old kaly.

it's been far too long

i need a fuckin drink

And the night got better

2009-04-21T05:24:03Z

I ditched my homework to hang out with some friends who were in town.
I figured i'd embrace opportunity. People are more important than my learning hahha.

Blaine and I decided to make dinner for the boys, so we went off to buy taco stuff.
We come back to a surprise, Derek and Jessica... yay,,,
I dont mind either at all, but when they are together... I HATE that.
I'm selfish when it comes to D.
She needs to get her own man, and her own friends.
This was my fitting.
selffffishshhhshhshshs
Anywho, didnt let it stop my evening..
It was great! Tacos were great! Dessert was great! The boys were amazinnngggg.
Man, I miss hanging out with boys...
Well I hang out with Derek and Codie all the time, but I want change.
And I liked these boys a lot, too bad they live in Jeff City :[

3/8 pages done.
i'll finish tomorrow.
WHATEV!

:D!
Hope you all had a good holiday.

lovelove